Dealing With Anxiety

Deck is the Antique Anatomy Tarot by Claire Goodchild.

I’m going to be putting disclaimer on this that some of the images might be a bit graphic given that these are anatomical drawings. Please read this at your own discretion.

So this is a good reading for me to do because I have battled with anxiety and depression for a long time. It became very obvious when I was in college, but I feel this is something I’ve had problems with since childhood. Sadly, I know when a situation triggers my anxiety because I tend to get irrationally angry out of nowhere and this is a sure sign of an impending attack. I also experience severe negative self-talk as well which is a horrible thing to do to myself given that I know I can work to do better for myself. Anyway, let’s see what the cards have to say.

The Cards

The Magician: manifesting, focused energy, spiritual power, problem solving, determination

The Tower: destruction, sudden change, devastation, sadness, despair

Justice: truth, honesty, balance, consequences, equality, fairness

The Sun: illumination, joy, celebration, happiness

9 of coins: contentment, gratification, good luck, satisfaction

So in this reading, I can see that I tend to get triggered rather badly by sudden and dramatic change. In the past, I would have a lot of trouble changing course on the fly because I get so determined to follow a certain path. This is where practicing mindfulness and self-love has helped me because they’ve forced me to go inwards and make sure that I don’t lose sight of what matters to me. Being content and satisfied with what I have, knowing that there is happiness and love around me as well as balance, fairness, truth and honesty is what helps me deal with the anxiety I tend to deal with. I’m not perfect at this yet but I’m getting better. Detaching myself from the triggering emotion and feeling free to examine my anxiety has helped me cope a lot better because I am developing skills to look past the immediate issue and see what’s hindering my comfort. I’m grateful for this because I know this is a skill I can take with me wherever I end up going next.