Embracing My Free Spirit

Art and deck credits go to Brigit Esselmont. Deck is the Everyday Tarot.

When I was a young girl, my mother used to tell me all the time to be myself, to forge ahead and not let other people define who I was at that time. I know this is basic to humanity to discover one’s personality and one’s path in life, but at the time, I didn’t know (or even really like) who I was. Part of the problem was that I was a bullied kid in school so I believed a lot of the things the kids were saying to me… somehow it was wrong to just be me because I’d have to apologize for it. Do you see how this is bad? Now, even though I’ve had to work hard to achieve this, I’ve become more settled in myself at 33 than I was as a kid in school. I can comfortably say that I’ve embraced who I am and I make no apologies for it. Lets see what my cards have to say on the matter shall we?

The Cards

from The Everyday Tarot by Bridgit Esselmont

The High Priestess: you are in tune with your intuition and higher self. The answers you are looking for are within you. It’s time to access your inner wisdom and divine feminine energy.

Ace of Swords: you are experiencing a breakthrough and a new way of thinking. Your mind is stretched by new ideas and you are excited about putting those ideas into action.

The Star: This is a powerful time for inspired action, channeled through your authentic self. Keep an open mind, stay true, have faith and trust in the Universe. It will share its gifts and blessings with you.

7 of Swords: you can’t do everything all at once so prioritizing what’s important to you is key to getting things done. This may let some people down and that’s alright. Sometimes you may need to put yourself first if you want to achieve your goals.

As a whole, I feel like this reading is for the most part, largely positive. I’m glad to see what this reading is saying to me because I’ve really had to work for it. For now, I am tuning in with my intuitive powers and what my higher self wants of me. I really had to access this when I started this site because I kept thinking that my purpose was to help someone else achieve their dreams. While I do hope for the best for the people I’ve worked for, I had to really work to understand that doing a “real” 9 to 5 job isn’t for me. When I think back, I’d tell people as a girl that I didn’t want a desk job. As it turns out, I still don’t want that desk job… at least if I have to have someone else dictating when I have to be there and what I have to do. This marks a huge breakthrough in my way of thinking because now, I have chosen to try and make a living off my writing, tarot and art, and I’m excited to see where things go from today. I’ve spent the time putting my ideas and thoughts into action, especially where my business is concerned, and it’s felt so exciting to finally say that I am doing a job I really and truly enjoy. I must acknowledge the risk involved with this, though. There is never a guarantee with anything in life, let alone this. But I am willing to take this risk because this matters to me. With an open mind, a little faith and a lot of trust, I know Universe will share it’s blessings with me if I keep going. The only thing here that I need to be aware of is that I am but one human doing a lot of work during the day. I need to prioritize what the most important tasks are during the day to get things done, even if that means letting people down. Yes, it’s okay that everyone else has expectations of my time. But I have expectations of my time as well, and sometimes, it is useful to put those expectations first if I want to keep myself going.