Essentially Me

Deck is the Antique Anatomy Tarot by Claire Goodchild.

I’m going to be putting disclaimer on this that some of the images might be a bit graphic given that these are anatomical drawings. Please read this at your own discretion.

So in the last couple of posts, I’ve revealed a bit about myself as the person behind the readings. This is going to be no exception as we’re going to go deep into who I am behind the scenes. It’s become clear (and was clear when I started the project really) that this was going to take a lot of work to build and maintain the website as well as the other things I have going on in my life. I’m really pleased and happy that I can share this side of myself with you so let us get into the cards and see what we find.

The Cards

8 of Elixirs: Melancholy, leaving, letting go, bittersweet ending, stalemate, depression

The Devil: bondage, addiction, seduction, sex, vices, codependency, enslavement, passion, overindulgence

7 of Coins: patience, work, perseverance, building, planning

King of Blades: Intellectual, management, objective, intolerant, fair, control, justice

9 of Coins: abundance, success, money, lavish lifestyle, prosperity

The Empress: beauty, abundance, potential, creation, luxury, fertility, Mother Nature

One quick thing to note before I get started with my reflection is that this reading got BRUTALLY (and I mean that in every sense of the word) honest with me right off the bat. Truthfully, I am grateful for this because it’s not wrong at all. There have been moments in my life where I have over-indulged, gave into the things that held me back and kept me addicted. Please don’t read this as me being addicted to drugs or alcohol; honestly, it’s never been as bad as that. But I am a human being and I have layers to me that some people won’t get to see. These negative, unhealthy things I carry with me have caused me grief and loss and stress, to the point that I’ve had to leave behind places I thought were home. I had to really fight through my anxiety and depression over what to do with myself afterwards, which is what led me to doing this. At my core, I know I have the ability to create my abundance, success and prosperity and I can do this through using my intellect and patience to persevere and create the life of abundance I want for myself. While I miss what I’ve lost in my life, there is light and peace on the other end of the tunnel and I’m seeing the light of that coming through. Slowly and surely, I will achieve my end if I keep going and keep fighting for what I want.