Happy Birthday Mom

Deck used is the Harmonious Tarot by Walter Crane and Earnest Fitzpatrick

Hey guys. So I’m going to be getting extremely personal here with you all, and for those of you that are just getting to know me, my mother passed away from breast cancer when I was 15. Even though I’ve had a long time to process and grieve the loss, there is still some lingering pain and I think there’s to be expected with a trauma like this. Before moving on here, I’d like to acknowledge that everyone’s process is different and everyone experiences grief in different ways so this is absolutely personal to me. But even at that, I’d like to get into some cards and find out how I can navigate the emotions I’m experiencing with this. Oh and I’d also like to wish my mother the happiest of birthdays in this post. I love you and I miss you so much.

The Cards

cards pulled from the Harmonious Tarot

• The tower: sudden change and disaster, crumbling, there’s value in the rubble

• 5 of swords: conflict, drama, step back if you can

• 8 of swords: you feel trapped but you can get away if you change your perspective

• 3 of pentacles: teamwork, balance, using the ideas of the novices and those with experience to achieve a desirable goal

• Ace of swords: an opportunity begins to pursue your mental and intellectual pursuits

Here, I’m seeing that there is a lot of change and conflict around the experience I had with my mother. This sometimes makes me feel trapped, but the thing is that I’m not, and I haven’t ever been. A change in perspective will help me here because there are some things I may be missing about this situation. A sense of balance will help me here as well.