Healing Myself and My Traumas

Deck used is the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

We’ve all gone through traumas and hurts in our past. I’m not unique in this regard and I definitely don’t have the right to deny that part of my truth. The question becomes how to start the healing process; certainly there are some traumas that take longer and require more time to learn from. Here’s what I can do to get myself started in the process.

The Cards '

from The Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

10 of swords: with this card, we see the effects of our actions. We are in a state of wreck and ruin because we have chosen to be hurtful. Whether it was by choice or whether we had no other recourse, our behaviors have caused someone else to feel as though they couldn’t trust our behaviors. There is still hope in this however: if we choose to acknowledge our negative behaviors, we can make certain to rebuild from the ashes. Will this be easy? No. Will we bounce back? Yes and we will be the wiser for it.

Princess of wands: This character is all fire and passion. However, they may be cruel and thoughtless in the pursuit of their own indulgences. You will face both the person and their beast when your open the door to them.

7 of swords This represents difficulties and obstacles placed in our path. We are in a position of having to deal with deceptions, whether they are by our own making or that of another. No it’s not fair and it’s not right. But we have come up against delay and dispute along the path to achievement, and it might be time to have a look at where things might be going wrong.

8 of swords: this card typically asks us to consider all sides of a situation and analyze the outcomes. While this may be alright, in some cases, this can turn into a counterproductive and fruitless effort. For every well-reasoned argument, another may pop up and lead us into restlessness. While we seem wrapped up in nervous rumination, we need to remember that we have the ability to remove our bonds and simply be present.

8 of cups: this card is about walking away from the things we thought were good for us. Doing this is hard and it’s painful at best. It may require more of us than we realize we needed to give. Before we get mired in the sadness and pain of this card, we need to remember that there is more on the other side of the struggle. When we let go, we make space for better things. Letting go requires emotional courage and sometimes, this is hard to come by.

3 of cups: this card speaks to the joys of friendship and the emotional connection we have with others. It speaks to the rewards of coming together as one unit in moments of celebration and happiness. There will be laughter and friendship aplenty waiting for you when this card comes up in a reading.

6 of disks: This card is representative of the successes we desire, the ability to sit back in luxury and enjoy the finer things in life. It is the stability we crave for our families and the comfort we seek to share with others who have less than us. This isn’t just about the luxuries we seek, it’s about giving and we have enough to do just that.

Ace of wands: here we see fire in its primitive and unformed version. We see the will one has to make things happen, now we need the foundation of an idea to make that raw energy work for us. Here, this is light and possibility and we’re on our way to making things happen.

Princess of Cups: This character is a kind and gentle dreamer with one foot on the side of reality and the other in the dreamy world of emotions. This persona has the ability to take the stuff of imagination and form it into reality. The danger this persona has is becoming too wrapped up in their dreams and needs to stay grounded in order to keep things from trapping them in the world of their imagination.

The Aeon: Commonly known as the card of Judgement, this card represents the idea of seeing yourself within the cycle of action and consequence. Take this as your call to action. Look at your actions and behaviors and ask how you will face your end when it comes. This card asks us to not look at what we’re taking with us when we leave this plane of existence, but what we’re leaving behind for others when we do.

The Empress: This character is a mother in every sense of the word. They are the comforts of hearth and home, they are the symbol of life and creation. The energy of this card is maternal and nurturing, abundant and endless. We are nourished though the energy of this card.

Prince of Disks: This character is driven, patient and a pragmatic problem solver. They may seem cold and soulless to others however, they see opportunity at every turn. They tend to let their work get into their private lives a bit, but never doubt a person who embodies the Price of Disks archetype. There should be no doubt in your mind that they will accomplish what they set out to do.

10 of wands: we need to be careful with this card because it can signal a metaphorical fire that rages out of control. We’ve had the idea and have built the foundations upon which to let the idea grow. The problem is that it has gotten away from us and morphed into something we never expected. It’s time to step back and consider whether we’ve gone too far in demanding our ideals be followed. There needs to be room for every idea, no matter how small, for it to be a balanced and fair journey.

Knight of swords: This character is someone who uses their mind like a blade; with them, there is no mercy. They have the ability to tackle problems with a zeal that can be a bit hard to deal with as they treat them like games they are certain of winning. They are usually the first people to point the finger when something goes wrong or someone messes up somewhere. They are the first person to prefer having a problem solved elegantly rather than practically.

Okay, so this is a long one to process, but here we go. In this, I’ve observed that I need to be careful of a few things, especially where it comes to letting my inner fire get out of control. Sure it’s good to have a passion for things that matter. It’s good to get ideas out there for people to give feedback with. What IS NOT good is not listening to other perspectives and putting others down for having ideas that don’t jive with your own. There will be times where I need to sit back and have a look at the kind of person I want to be remembered for and what I leave behind for my family and for future generations to come. I also have a choice here as well. I can either be sad that I lost things that I thought mattered to me, or I can be proud of having the emotional strength to walk away from things that weren’t good for me. Neither of these choices are comfortable and neither of them are easy, but one of them yields a different result. I choose to be proud of walking away from the toxic environment that was my job and letting go of people whose energies didn’t serve me. I’m a dreamer and the best thing I can do for myself is to stay grounded in reality while I let my imagination run a bit wild.