Helping Me Help Myself

Deck used is the Mystic Mondays Tarot by Grace Duong

Recently, I’ve been feeling the need for a change of pace and with the way 2020 has gone so far, things haven’t gone the way I hoped for (or anyone for that matter.) I’m going to vent a little and say that I’m tired of being cooped up and I’m tired of feeling like I’m missing out on something because I can’t even leave my house (I know I’m not unique in this so please understand this sentiment isn’t coming from me alone.) But there are ways of helping myself through the rest of this quarantine and I will see this through, so here we go…

from the Mystic Mondays Tarot by Grace Duong

The Cards

The Hierophant: conventional, institution, traditions

2 of swords: impasse, stillness, indecision

Princess of pentacles: thirsty for knowledge, grounded, practical

In looking at this reading, I think what’s making me stuff up is the fact that I know what is traditionally done for my family at this time and the thing is that because of the quarantine, we won’t be able to get all of us together as we usually do. Normally, all of my extended family get together and celebrate the season with everyone but that isn’t going to happen. Thanks to some side issues, I don’t know if I’ll be able to even see other relatives this year either, which makes me just as sad. I do think the thing that is keeping me from letting these emotions go is being indecisive and staying at an impasse with how to deal with these emotions; I think the fact is that I have reached a sense of indecision about the situation. While I know it’s safer to stay home (and I intend to because I don’t want to get anyone sick… I don’t want to get sick either), I really really miss seeing my family and exchanging time with them. There is a blessing in disguise with this though and that is the fact that I can spend this time working through and understanding who I am , what I value and how to make those things work for me as a whole person. I know this will keep me grounded and better allow me to make practical moves forward on my goals.