Hi Mom: Reconnecting with my Maternal Energy

Deck used is the Mystic Mondays Tarot by Grace Duong

So this is going to be a bit of a sad introduction to this reading, however, it will make sense why I did this reading. When I was 15, my mother died of metastatic breast cancer. She had been ill since I started school (I was in high school and the time) and it made life a whole lot more difficult (just imagine being a hormonal teenager having to deal with something like this…trust me, it was rough). It took a long time to heal and I wasn’t sure it would ever happen. But the thing is that grief is a heck of an emotion because it plays nasty with you. One day you think you’re fine and the next you’re not fine at all (and potentially sobbing your eyes out in the middle of class for no apparent reason. Yeah that happened to me a few times…) I wanted to do this spread to honor my mother but also help me connect with her energy again. Not to jump ahead too far, but it definitely helped.

The Cards

from the Mystic Mondays Tarot by Grace Duong

King of Wands: Natural leader, visionary,

5 of swords: conquest, self-interest, survival mode

7 of pentacles: patience, investment, sustainability

Princess of Cups; flow, synchronicity, mystic messages

Here, I’m being shown that one way I connect to my maternal energy is to appreciate the natural leadership skills I have in me and the ability to make the vision I have for my future come to pass. There have be moments where I have had to be in survival mode to make sure that I didn’t get hurt and this is especially true after the experience I had with my mother’s death. I had to grow up faster than I was ready for and frankly, it traumatized me. But with some patience with myself, I found that I could invest in and sustain the flow I had to get into the cope with the loss. No, not having my mother around was downright strange for me, but her presence is always with me. I have two young nephews now and I hope they know their grandma Judy loves and is proud as heck of them. How is knowing this helping me reconnect with my maternal energy? I have learned and am constantly reinforcing the idea of loving myself as a mother would which means taking care of my heart, mind, soul and body and passing that onto other people.