Hiding Behind What You're Not

Decks used are Deviant Moon tarot by Patrick Valenza, The Dark Angels Tarot by Luca Russo, Zombie Tarot by Stacey Graham, Paul Kepple and Ralph Geroni, The Murder of Crows by Corrado Roi, the Crow Tarot by MJ Cullinane and the Occult Tarot by Travis McHenry

Disclaimer: the cards depict graphic images, mild gore and some nudity. Please view this reading at your own discretion.

So, I have a question for you friend. How is your inner dialogue these days? How are you speaking to yourself? I’m sensing a bit of discomfort and pain in your space, that seems to be triggered by life circumstances or other things going on here. So, what’s being kept unclear and how can we clarify it for each other? Let’s get into some cards and find out.

WHAT IS HIDDEN

cards pulled from various decks

Shax: steals or fetches anything requested including money and horses. Reveals secret things, brings questionable familiars.

2 of pentacles: juggling a lot on your plate, staying calm while emotional upheaval is happening around you and turbulent waters are surging.

Strength: overcoming base desires with calm control and healing

4 of pentacles: stinginess, open up and let go a bit, you’re holding on too tightly.

8 of swords: you’re feeling trapped and hemmed in but you can escape your situation with a change in mindset and a shift in perspective.

Queen of Wands: someone fiery and passionate and can inspire the passions and inspirations in others and can understand how to use theirs to their best usage.

WHAT IS CLEAR

cards pulled from various decks

Aim: reveals secrets and increases one’s intellect. Spreads destruction by fire

The Sun: growth, springtime, warmth, clarity,

4 of pentacles: stinginess, open up and let go a bit, you’re holding on too tightly.

5 of wands: conflict, drama, step back if you can but defend yourself if you must.

Knight of Cups: someone who takes action on their emotional and spiritual growth, romantic and generously open with what’s on their mind and heart.

Justice: balance, answering for the past behaviors.

To answer the question of what is hidden from you friend, I’m seeing that you are juggling a lot (once again and there’s your life circumstances) and this has you feeling trapped and hemmed in somehow. Because you’re not seeing an escape route, you’ve likely given into stinginess and not doing things because you’re uncomfortably settled into a lack mindset; this likely has you hiding behind what you’re not. I think there is a blessing underneath this behavior that you’re not seeing in that you are smart, strong, powerful, passionate and smart. What’s sad is that you’re not seeing this because of being triggered into the current mindset you’re holding yourself in.

So, let’s clarify how to get you to start reversing this mindset. What is absolutely clear is that there is conflict in your space that you’re working through, and it’s put you in a lack mindset. It’s worth repeating, because you might not see this fact either, though I do admit the fact that you might not be ready to address it. What may help is trying to find and connect with a sense of balance so you can accept responsibility for your past actions, get clear about what it is you want in your life, the values and rules you live by and ultimately, who you are as a person without all the emotional chatter you put yourself through.