Leaning Towards Love

Decks used are listed in the sources tab. on my website.

Because it’s the end of the year and things are winding down, I tend to get reflective on where I’ve been and what I’ve been doing for the past 52 weeks. In thinking about that now, it’s been a year of reckoning with what I’ve known to be true for myself, where I’ve been, and where I’m going. While I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, I can say for sure that the Meg of 2019 was a different person from the Meg of 2020, and the Meg of right now will change throughout 2021. There’s still a long way to go and it is in the spirit of continuing my journey, that I do this reading.

The Cards

cards pulled from various decks

“When I lean toward love, I am led.” Gabrielle Bernstein

Princess of Wands: Creative expression, spark, free spirit

First Quarter Moon: your commitment is being tested

3 of wands: strategy, planning, strength, travel

Knight of blades: assertive, arrogant, quick-witted, severe, impatient, argumentative

Picasso Jasper: connection, meditation, creative surge, reality vs. illusion, mixing imagination with practical plans

7 of cups: choices, consideration, daydreams

Cat Spirit: claim your independence

Ace of Pentacles: clarity, ability to manifest your desires, focus, and keep a fixed sight on what it is you want to achieve

Ace of cups: you are filled with happiness, joy, and bliss, creative opportunities are abundant. There may be new love, friendship, or even art projects that are available to you now.

Queen of Disks: sensitive, caring, warm light, supportive, strong, stable, and reliable

Abanolaka (she who battles): justice, fierce, commitment

Ace of Crystals: manifestation, prosperity, a fresh start, fulfillment, vitality, successful ventures, stability, practicality

The Lovers: love, attraction, virtue, compatibility, harmony, triumph over trials, choices, intuitive decisions

The World: completion, satisfaction

3 of bones: remaining balanced through changes, shared experiences, and a deep bond

Amber: recharge your good vibes

8 of wands: travel and swift change

Beltane: strength, blossom, flourishing, growth, happiness, love marriage, new relationships, virility, energy, and fertility

6 of pentacles: raise in money or salary

9 of diamonds: self-care, sacrifice without regret

Judgment: hearing and heeding a call

7 of cups: dreams and desires, sifting through what is real versus what is fake

Queen of vessels: self-sacrifice, honesty, generosity, joy, kind, sensitivity, intuitive

Judgment- reversed: you’re not taking a chance you know you’re capable of taking. This could change you for the better if you took the leap

The thing that stands out quite strongly is that there are some things I’ve committed myself to do and that commitment is what is being tested right now. A lot of this commitment is around making plans that I’d genuinely like to see to completion. However, as crazy as things are for me right now, it seems that there will be some things I need to be quite persistent about doing. It’s been hard these last few months and perhaps some of my energy is waning. It makes sense that is happening; it is the end of the year after all. But if I take this leap, keep going forward with my tasks, and do what I need to do, perhaps there will be some needed changes that come my way. The question is how to go about doing this.

Firstly, I need to dig deep into the options I have for myself right now. Many things in front of me are shiny and bright and new. All of it is so tempting to go for. I want to handle that nice, shiny object in front of me, but perhaps the surface of that object will tarnish as soon as I put my hands on it. I don’t want to have that happen, so weighing out all the pros and cons of each option will be the first step in understanding where to go first. Secondly, I need to acknowledge that I am being called to take action on things that I never thought would happen to me. Doing these things will help me get to where I need to be, but I need to take the leap and move forward as best as I can. I don’t know what this looks like just yet, however, there are things I can do in the meantime to make sure that I can help myself by taking the leap. These things include knowing my worth as an energetic being on this planet, understanding my humanity (for better or worse) isn’t dependent on other people, staying true to the creativity, honesty, and generosity that I know is strong in me.

If I can do this, then I will see the results I want to see. What are those results? The first thing is that there will be joy, happiness, and bliss for me. I will be in sync with what I want and I will have a clear and firm plan for how to get there. The upside of having this happen is that because I’m clear on the goals I want to achieve, I’ll be able to mix the dream with practical plans.