Looking Into The Mirror

Deck used is the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

Again with the self- reflection spreads Meg? Yup, we’re doing this again. Sometimes I need to look into the mirror and take a hard look at myself because occasionally, I lose sight of who I am. One thing that I’ve had to work through with starting my website and blog is dealing with the anxiety of things around the entire operation. I know deep down that I shouldn’t worry about things in this area because I’ve done the work to get myself here. So what can I do to make sure I work through my fears?

The Cards

from the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

Ace of Swords: this card represents that first idea of a new project, your “aha” moment. This brings clarity and the thought of a simple idea having the power to change and revolutionize the world around us. We are excited by the thought of overturning old ideas and challenging the way we think about things.

Princess of Disks: the character of this card is a nurturer and protector and their greatest strength is their endurance, stability and determination. They are the embodiment of maternal energy, giving new life and vital guidance and protecting it with love and nurturing energies.

The Wheel of Fortune: This represents the idea of random forces in the world around us, changing everything in an instant. As much as we plan and hope things go for the best, sometimes, things don’t work like we anticipate they will. This card is not meant to be negative or positive, it’s simply meant to illustrate the idea of what comes up, must go down and what is down, will come back up again.

8 of Swords: this card is the illustration of how the tendency to overthink gets us into trouble. It can lead us into an anxious frenzy where we are confused and unsure about anything. This leads us into restlessness and unproductivity and the ideas and good intentions we once had may have become muddy and murky. While it may seem that we can see no way out, we must look inside for the strength to move. Our bonds aren’t as tight as we anticipate.

2 of Swords: Here, we may be at an impasse where our decisions are concerned. While things seem to fall into place, we keep feeling like we are missing something important about the things we need to make choices on. Perhaps the pure energy we’ve put into creating our new ideas have had some unforeseen consequences we didn’t consider before. These need acknowledging before we can move on.

What I see immediately from this, is that there’s a lot of air in this reading. For context, the suit of swords are typically associated with the element of air and therefore has the element of illustrating the power of one’s intellect. With the ace of swords, I’ve had a moment where the ideas in my head have crystallized into a form that can be shared. The problem I am facing is that my anxiety and tendencies of overthinking have led me to feel that I am trapped. Perhaps I’m missing something I need to get out? Maybe looking again at the options I have will help me get away from the trapped feelings. Truly, the things that make me feel trapped aren’t as enclosing as I think they are and I can get out of the anxiety. The things that will help me here is knowing that I am strong enough and have the endurance and determination to keep trying. I do need to acknowledge that sometimes, things aren’t going to work. I’m going to have my highs and lows and the world around me will turn all the same, no matter how I plan for things to go.