Mind, Body, Spirit, Past, Present, Future

Deck used is the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

So with this spread, I wanted to track how I was feeling, where I’ve been, going and where I’ll end up. There’s been some interesting things coming up around me lately and given the synchronicity of it all, I know the results of this reading will help me make sense of the rest of it all as things come up. I’ve grouped things together to make this reading a bit more cohesive so bear with me.

The Cards

from the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

9 Of Swords: With this card, we see cruelty following us. With every choice we make, with every path we try and follow, there is a sense of being damned if we do and damned if we don’t. Because the swords are associated with the element of air, we see that thinking, and overthinking causes us to find no rest, and it is here where we must take a step back and try to see where we’ve lost perspective. Where this card may lead, no one knows, but we must be able to face and accept the consequences for what we’ve done.

The Aeon: This card represents the idea of looking at your place in the world and seeing what you might be leaving behind for those that come after you. Commonly known as the card for Judgement, we know we will face our ends at some point, and we will have to answer for our actions in this life. But when we do go, it’s how people will remember us that will carry on.

7 of Wands: This cause represents the idea of the little voice that champions a hopeless cause. This is the person on the soapbox that won’t stop shouting. This represents protest, passion, strength and courage when standing up against overwhelming odds.

Justice: This card represents our desires to see things done fairly and justly. We must remember however, that the idea of perfect justice is a human idea and it is important, but it is an ideal that we find difficult to achieve in our modern world. Potentially unfair solutions to problems come up for everyone however it is an ideal to hold onto even though we as humans are fallible and fragile creatures. We must remember that justice needs the guidance of love and mercy to be as balanced as we can make it.

4 of Cups: There is a sense of security and stability of emotion with this card though this can be highly worrying in some cases. While we all would like to know where we stand, with someone to rely on in the face of hardships, sometimes our relationships can become too comfortable and thus, they become stale. Without the risk of trying something new, we might never know what the relationships we have with other people can handle. In other ideas, this may mean that we’re sitting back and analyzing what we truly value, putting up boundaries where they need to be and refusing energies and things that don’t truly serve us.

8 of Wands: things are ramping up with speed aplenty. This is our reminder to keep swimming and going with the flow so we can stay above the waves. Sometimes, we must keep moving ahead as fast as we can if we want to achieve our goals before we run out of steam. As Dory from Finding Nemo says, “just keep swimming.”

Right so this is an interesting spread. Mentally, I’ve been extremely cruel to myself in the past. I tend to have bouts of anxiety and intrusive thoughts. These become like a broken record, to the point that I’ve lost sleep and productivity when they’ve been bad enough. The last major bout of this I had was after I lost my job last year. I needed time to recover myself because I didn’t leave on good terms with the boss I had and in the moment, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do. It was impossible to tell how the end result was going to play out because I didn’t see myself running my website and blog at the time. But here we are. The point is that my brain was being so epically cruel to me in that it kept replaying all my mistakes and flubs. Physically, there was justice done for me in this situation because I had wanted to leave that job for a while before I actually did. There were things I could have done better, but being out of the situation for a while now, I know I made the best impact I could, because the work I did helped people with their literacy and education. I know I helped and above everything else, I’m proud of that fact. Even though now, my platform is different, I know I can still impact people for the better through my tarot readings and blogs. I will do the good I set out to do, no matter how I fall in the process. Really, it’s all about how I get back up. It’s about how I handle when things go wrong and what I let into my spaces. Things may get to moving fast, but you know what? I’m strong enough to swim. I don’t have any other option as sinking won’t be an option.