My Tarot Self Portrait

Art and deck credits go to Anna Franklin (Fairy Ring), Heidi Schulman (Dog Tarot) and Megan Lynn Kott (Cat Tarot)

I’ve always believed that a very healthy thing to do when reading tarot is to ask your cards to help you self-reflect and get a picture of who you are in the moment of reading your cards. Of course, like the person reading the cards, the portrait changes with time, this is perfectly healthy and absolutely necessary. The coolest part about this to me is that these portraits can indicate one’s journey through this life. That’s what I hope this reading will start us off on. I’ve spent the last few posts acquainting you with my site and my craft. Now, I’d like to get a bit personal about who I am as the person behind the blogs and the readings. Please know that I am coming from a very honest and raw place with these readings and I’ve done my best to be honest in my reflection on these readings. One thing I always tell people who are coming new to a tarot reading is that the cards give you what you NEED not what you want, so sometimes these readings can be brutally honest. I am no exception to this rule, and I’m old hat in reading tarot by now. (Not really, but I’m not fresh to reading tarot… I think you get what I mean??) What I meant to say is that while the cards are simply pictures on heavy paper stock, the symbols and meaning behind the cards will tell you what you need to know in the moment you do your reading. So friends… let’s see what my cards have to say shall we?

ME/MY PROBLEM

The Bogey Man: unfounded fears and anxieties. You are worried over nothing

The White Lady: a particular place of event will lead to great changes. This is someone young and adventurous and fun loving. She is loyal and warm but is easily hurt if offended.

FEARS AND WEAKNESSES/HOPES

3 of Biscuits: approach the object of your questions/anxieties with a sense of confidence and cheer

7 of Bowls: represents emotional fulfillment and your desire for calm and clarity in your relationship with yourself and others.

PAST INFLUENCES AND OUTCOME

10 of Wands: you’re exhausted but don’t let your guard down and don’t take on more than your fair share. You have more abundance coming to you, believe it or not.

The Hierophant: this is someone who follows the rules and sometimes even makes them. However, sometimes it is okay to turn a blind eye.

Well, it is true here as well… I have been experiencing a lot of nerves and anxieties where it comes to getting things taken care of. But I need to know that I’ll be okay. I need to stay open minded and address the object of my concern instead of running away from it. Things over the last few months have been exhausting. But I need to know that it is ABSOLUTELY okay to preserve my boundaries (not aggressively so but know and establish with people that I have them) and not take on more than my fair share of the work ahead for me. It’s definitely okay to have some fun every now and again because frankly, it’s the end game for hard work and dedication to one’s goals. Other’s people’s negative perceptions of who I am and what I do matter little in the end if who I am and what I do fill me energetically and emotionally.

To be perfectly honest with you, things over the last 12 weeks have been challenging and enlightening and for that I’m grateful. However, I need to be honest with all of this. Getting the site up and running has been the source of a lot of anxiety because honestly, I experienced a lot of imposter syndrome and inadequacy around this. The thing is guys.. I DID THIS TO MYSELF. It all goes back to being a beginner. I’ve got a lot to learn and why should I be ashamed of that? Why should I let that stop me? I might have a lot on my plate right now, but I have the will to achieve my goals and I have a way to do that because of it.