No Apologies

Cards were pulled from various decks. You can see more on the sources page of my website.

So I’m going to start with a question for you all. If we could live without fear and without apologies for who we are, what would we do? Who would we be? For me, I’ve had a difficult time learning to accept myself as a creator and human being in general (which is sad to say to be honest) Apologizing for my personhood shouldn’t even be an option, and yet, I can count so many times when I have done just that. So how can I (and perhaps the rest of you) learn to accept ourselves for who and what we are?

The Cards:

"I am unapologetic about what I desire and trust that what I focus on will grow." Gabrielle Bernstein

cards pulled from various decks

ROW 1

• Volaris (she who flies): dare, do reach, stop hiding from your dreams, and don’t fear the fall. Embrace the flight.

• Ace of Pentacles: money, wishes granted

• 3 of diamonds: craftsmanship, successful collaboration, admiration

• Rhodochrosite: soften your heart

• 6 of elixirs: nostalgia, childhood, memories, reconnection

• 4 of stones: hope vitality, protection, shelter

ROW 2

• The high priestess: mystery intuition, secrets

• The Wheel of Fortune: completion of a cycle, what is up will come down again and vice-versa

• South Node: don’t let your past hold you back

• Knight of Cups: passion, action, emotion, sensitivity, romantic, creative

• Judgment: absolution, evaluation, reflection

• 2 of cups: connection, attraction, harmony

ROW 3

• 3 of acorns: foresight, exploration

• 10 of coins: stability, abundance, happy home

• One of Bones: take a lighter approach to your situation. Stability is the goal here.

• Queen of wands: determination, straight forward, direct

• Tryamour: choice, heart versus head, consider carefully

• Zebra Jasper: engaging, coming back into society

ROW 4

• 1of pentacles: prosperity, luck day, opportunities

• Stag: take the lead

• The Hierophant: teacher, spiritual or religious authority

• The lovers: choices, sexuality, decisions made that make the heart glad

• 5 of pentacles: destitution, out in the cold, help is there for you

• Page of cups: emotional experience or growth

• 2 of swords: choices, heart versus head

• Diviner: prediction, maps, essentials

• Crossing: spirituality, sadness, fate

• Fish: money fluidity, circulation

With this reading, there are two things I’m seeing with this. One there is a desire to reconnect with a past self. There is a need to surrender to the mystery of life and not knowing what comes next or where we’ll be. The thing is, as an intuitive being, I need to take responsibility and a lighter approach to my situation in life. There will be challenges that may leave me feeling cold and dysregulated and there will be decisions that need to be made.

However, there is a call to action in this as well. I need to dare to reach for the dreams I have in my head. I have so much determination and vigor to get my tasks done and my goals achieved. I can’t be held back by my past. I need to know that I’m intuitive with enough foresight to plan, dive deep and unlock the powers I know I have to achieve my dreams.