On Forgiveness

Deck used is the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham, Paul Kepple and Ralph Geroni. Disclaimer for mild gore and graphic images. Please read these posts at your discretion if you are sensitive.

We’ve all had moments where we’ve had someone hurt us. It’s not new, it’s nothing out of the ordinary to experience hurt. However, it takes something deep in us to make something positive out of a negative. Sometimes, this can feel impossible, especially when the hurt runs more than skin deep. But if we can learn to forgive and move on from what’s holding us back, perhaps healing the wounds we are carrying might not be as painful.

from the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham et al

The Cards

Knight of Swords: Brave, Ego, Lack of Emotion

King of wands: Entrepreneur, self-reliant, optimism

3 of swords: Heartache, Jealousy, Loss

Justice: Impartiality, Fairness, Equality

4 of wands: Reward, Prosperity, celebrations

8 of Hazards: invention, ingenuity, new approach

I’ll start by saying that for myself, there’s a lot of stuff I need to work on in terms of learning true forgiveness. Holding onto what is keeping me in the ideas of being brave and having a lack of emotion is actually hurting me, because really, I do care. A lot. Part of having Pisces and Scorpio in my natal chart means that my emotions are right on the surface for me. Both Scorpio and Pisces are water signs and water tends to be associated most often with emotions, both how we present them and what we keep private. While I try to be hard and act like I don’t care when someone says something hurtful, sometimes it REALLY cuts deep. This affects me in terms of being self-reliant and optimistic, especially where it comes to being an entrepreneur and business owner. On the one hand, I feel empowered that an ancestor of mine came through such hardships to make a life for himself. On the other hand, when someone tells me I can’t do something for whatever reason they use to justify themselves, the blow to my ego feels awful. This is where I need to do some work.

What I think will help me out in this regard is working on being fair, impartial and treating the situation with equal attention as I would in anything else. Keeping in mind that everyone has their opinions and are free to state them is a good start for me along the way to forgiveness because that freedom is mine as well. I’ve done some hurtful things with my words in the past and have paid dearly for them. Knowing this, and knowing that I am resilient enough to keep going and try again after being hurt can pay in rewards if I’m willing enough to get up and go back out in the storm. Perhaps there will need to be a new approach to my plans after the heartache goes away, but ultimately, forgiving and moving on can only benefit me if I give myself the space to try.