One Card Deep Dive- Strength

Deck used is the Everyday Tarot by Bridgit Esselmont

I’ve decided to try something new this month with my readings. Similar to the Yuletide Tarot project I did on my Youtube channel, I wanted to randomly pick a card from the deck and go on a deep dive with this reading. I want to talk about what it means to me in regards to my current path and what I have to do to integrate the lesson for the long term.

from the Everyday Tarot by Bridgit Esselmont

The Card:

Strength: “You have inner power and strength and you lead using subtle influence and persuasion. You understand your animal instincts and express your raw power and courage and measured restraint.” Bridget Esselmont

I find myself resonating a lot with this card, especially at this point in my life. I’ve been through a lot of changes in the last two years and a lot of it has been difficult to handle because it has meant a lot of course correction and leaving things behind that aren’t meant for me anymore. To give a bit of history about myself, I graduated from college in 2018, and like so many people in my place, I went on the job hunt. I began to get so discouraged and concerned that I’d never find anything that used my skills. I was willing to settle on just about anything if it paid me. The problem with that is that when I finally did find something, I quit two days later and found myself right back where I started when I graduated. I went back out there and was able to find myself a job at a local bookstore which I loved, but it quickly became energetically draining and I started developing some serious concerns about my mental health. I chose to leave the store when it became too much to handle. Plenty of things happened after that shook me to my core and it all felt so awful to deal with. I genuinely thought things weren’t going to change. However, they did. And now we’re here.

So why do I mention all of these things? Because I didn’t feel strong in those moments. I didn’t feel good enough to try for something out of the blue. I lived my life by what other people expected of me that to try for something I truly wanted felt extremely scary. I didn’t trust myself enough to go for those things I wanted, even though there were moments put in front of me that showed me I actually could. I had to figure out how to stand up and take control of what I wanted. I didn’t feel strong when everything started happening, but those hiccups, major as they were, were stepping stones to get me to this point. If I was strong enough to face the challenges life put in front of me then, I am strong enough to face what comes next.