Perfect time for a deep dive

Deck used is the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham, Paul Kepple and Ralph Geroni. Disclaimer for mild gore and graphic images. Please read these posts at your discretion if you are sensitive.

Now that fall is here, the weather is changing, the days are getting shorter and the nights are getting longer. I love this time because it’s when I start feeling myself turn inwards. I get reflective and start planning what I want the rest of my year to look like. Of course there’s still the present conditions to attend to, but there’s something about the idea of sitting in my kitchen with a large coffee and thinking about all I’ve achieved and where I want to go next. I figure with the changing of the seasons comes the perfect time to dive deep into my heart, mind and soul. Come with me and let's see what happens.

The Cards

from the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham et al.

Heart: 3 of swords: Heartache, jealousy, loss

• 9 of swords: paranoia, anxiety, hopelessness

• Strength: resolve, conviction, inner determination

• Queen of swords: Intelligence, sharp tongue, unscrupulous

Mind: 8 of cups: moving on, troubled relationships, change

• Page of cups: creative, kind, artistic

• The high priestess: mystery, intuition, secrets

• 7 of hazards: challenges, competition, persistence

Soul: 5 of swords: defeat, bickering, severing ties

• Knight of wands: bold, impetuous, adventurer

• King of wands: entrepreneur, self-reliant, optimism

• 6 of cups: nostalgia, memories, old flames

So the first area I’m looking at is what is on my heart and right off the bat, I see there’s some hurt that I need to work with. There’s been some heartache and loss that’s been causing me to feel anxious, hopeless and paranoid. Perhaps I’m the cause of these emotions in someone else and I need to work with that though too. The way I’m going to start doing this is to understand how my intelligence can be used, as well as when I’m being unscrupulous and sharp with people. Neither of the last two qualities are ones I want to hold onto so I need to consider ways of letting these things go and taking responsibility for when I’ve been a negative person to someone else.

The second area is what has been on my mind lately. Again, I’m seeing the stresses of change and transformation coming into play but there is a better and deeper way for this to be less of a problem for me. I need to hold onto my creativity, kindness and artistic abilities because these are what’s helping me see past the challenges I’m facing. There has definitely been some mystery and secrets surrounding the situation I’m in, because I don’t know what’s going to happen next with things in my life. There will be competition and challenges from outside forces, but with persistence and kindness to myself and others, I’ll see myself through.

The third area I wanted to look at is what is in my soul and the first thing I notice is that there has been some internal fighting, bickering and hurt that has led me to sever bad ties with people who were holding me back from doing the things I knew I could do. I realized, when this happened, I because free to do what I needed to do to start myself on a different path. I find myself being bold and adventurous and an optimistic, self-reliant entrepreneur. I never knew I had this in me and I am grateful for making the realization when I did. Granted, there’s some sense of nostalgia and memories of my past experiences do come back, but things are good for me right now and I am very happy with where things are at the moment.

Blessed Be