Radical Acceptance: A Girl Of My Own Kind

Deck used is the Mystic Mondays Tarot by Grace Duong

Okay so I was doing some thinking about this reading and one thing that came to mind, even before I did the reading was that I have a lot of trouble accepting the person I’ve become. This past year has brought on a lot of big changes for me and even though we still have some way to go before the year is up. I wanted to take the time to sit back and reflect on what I need to radically accept in my life. What is it about me that I haven’t quite grasped yet? Lets have the cards do the talking shall we?

The cards

Significator: The Hanged Woman

9 of pentacles: true colors, splendor, vitality

10 of swords: betrayal, fatality, backstabbed

King of pentacles: attainment, prosperity, abundance

10 of cups: wholeness, connection, full circle

Death: change, ending, rebirth

Knight of Wands: ambition, risk taker, action oriented

Queen of Swords: Clever, meticulous, intellectual

The Hierophant: Conventional, institution, tradition

So there are some things I need to work on for myself, especially where it comes to being myself. My mother used to tell me quite often that I was a girl of my own kind, and for the longest time, I was actually ASHAMED of that because of the fact that I was bullied and teased a lot as a child. Dealing with the pain and the betrayal of people calling me names and making fun of me for whatever reason really left its mark on me, to the point that I feel threatened and uncomfortable whenever someone turns on me or asks me pointed questions about myself out of the blue. (it’s also a bad sign that sometimes I tend to snap back at them without knowing their real intentions...) What I think might help and what I need to honor is the fact that I am a whole person, flaws and all, and that my connection with my personhood is what’s going to bring me full circle and through all the changes, endings and rebirths I’ll have to go through in my life. I think once I acknowledge and embrace my true self, the ambitious, action oriented side of my personality will be able to take control and I’ll be able to plan for what may come next.