Setting Goals for the coming months

Deck used is the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

Again, I am going to bring up my anxiety here, because one thing I have trouble with is setting big goals for myself. Unless I can be sure things will work in my favor, I tend to procrastinate and make myself feel worse. I wanted to get into the nitty gritty of why this happens for me and how I can work to get past the anxiety I feel when starting something new.

The Cards

from the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

The Devil: This card represents all the ways we fall prey to our addictions. It is the representation of our hedonistic desires, fears and self-doubt. All these things can hold us back from what we truly want in life because it is playing directly into our egos. I am going to put a positive spin on this and say that if we can recognize what our inner Devil is doing to us, we can work to counteract the energy we feel from this card.

The Empress: This card represents the very highest aspects of motherhood: love, mercy, nurturing and acceptance without judgement. This card is the softer side of authority, teaching us to lead with compassion, trust and a gentle hand.

10 of Wands: Here, we see how the spark and fire of passion has been corrupted into obedience and oppression. This card is asking us to take a step back and look at what is keeping us from really being ourselves. It is asking us to check our motivations for doing things, when we have gone too far, and whether we have accepted inhumanity and pain in the name of an idea we think is worthy. Perhaps these energies don’t serve us anymore. It won’t do any harm to allow other ideas to come to us, whether we agree with them or not.

The Aeon: Commonly known as Judgement, this represents the idea of looking into what we have done with the time we’ve spent on this planet so far and asking ourselves how we will face these things when we leave it. We will face these things when our end comes. The ripple in the stream metaphor is apt here. What we do in this life has far reaching implications and what we leave behind for those that will come after we’re gone.

Prince of Wands: This character represented in this card is commonly known as a noble trickster. They may be a character who enjoys satirizing those in power or championing a moral change that needs to be made. While they are a tricky character, they are worth paying attention to, because often times, they can speak more powerfully than one might expect.

So one thing that immediately popped out at me about this reading was the aspect of fire and how it’s been presented in this spread. We see how the passion I feel for my projects may get stamped down by those that disagree with me putting my energy into things. I feel this is illustrated with the 10 of Wands being present in the reading. On the flipside of this, I see the Prince of Wands come up and I am immediately impressed with the idea that I do in fact, have something to say with regards to what I want to do with my life. Along the way, I’ll face the fear and anxiety my ego makes me feel, but I don’t have to let it consume me. I don’t have to let my inner Devil hold me back because really, that part of me is miniscule compared with what I have to give to the world. If I can treat myself kindly and openly, then I can do what I need to do and face my end knowing that I’ve done the best job I could with the things I had at my disposal.