Stop that s**t

Deck used is the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham, Paul Kepple and Ralph Geroni

Disclaimer on these upcoming posts for mild gore and graphic images. Please read at your own discretion if you’re sensitive.

We all have our bad habits and occasionally, they get the better of us. I think the trick is learning to identify what they are and figure out a way of kicking them for good. Going on a journey of self-improvement is always hard when you’re feeling confronted, so lets do the hard thing and confront one or two of my bad habits right now (I’m not going to drag you lovely people without dragging myself… here we go)

The cards:

from the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham et al.

7 of Wands: represents challenges, competition and persistence

Page of Wands: someone youthful, highly ambitious and goal oriented and in need of growth

King of Swords: someone who is stubborn, judgmental and authoritative

So the first thing I’m immediately seeing is that there’s a lot of fire in this reading (granted there’s only three cards, but two of the three cards being wands suggests this to me and we’ll get to that in a moment… The other aspect of this is that there’s air in this reading as well. Wands are associated with the element of fire and swords are associated with air. So with that in mind, I can tell there’s a lot of passion and drive in me and what helps me out here is having the intelligence to make the passion and drive work for me. The thing is I need to know when they go from being healthy, good things to destructive and bad.

One thing I need to be aware of in kicking my bad habits is the fact that I am going to face challenges and competition. This where the need for persistence is key because what I’m facing will be difficult. I read in another interpretation for the 7 of Wands is that the character is standing above a crowd that’s jeering, loud and trying to bring them down. This person sees people she thought were on her side in that crowd and it hurts them to see. I have certainly been facing this in recent days with people I thought were supportive of me trying to build a life on creating content for Lune Rouge. But it will take time and effort and I am willing to give that much to make this work and again, knowing when this hurts me will help me kick the bad habits I tend to hold onto.

This actually leads me into looking at the second card which is the Page of Wands. The character is described as someone who has lofty goals and ambitions, the youthful energy to try and go for them, but is definitely in need of growth. Again, this is the position I’m in right now. To grow past what’s keeping me from being really and truly able to get my goals started, I need to understand that not everyone will like my decisions, even those closest to me. It’s not up to me to decide whether I am acceptable to other people. I need to be acceptable to myself before anyone else. I’ve drawn cards in the past that suggest determination and endurance, but I need to learn when these attributes turn into stubbornness and work to listen to what people are staying. Calm, detached acceptance of these aspects is what will allow me to do this. The outcome of this is that I will be better able to identify the stubborn, judgmental aspects of my personality and use this knowledge to be calmly authoritative when I need to be.