Tapping Into My Power

Art and deck credits go to Brigit Esselmont. Deck is the Everyday Tarot.

Sometime before I launched my website, I had been feeling quite anxious in getting things set up with everything. I also started feeling an extreme bout of imposter syndrome as well, because of the fact that I didn’t feel qualified enough to even be building a website let alone running a business around it. I didn’t feel “good enough” to do what I had set my heart on doing. Here’s the thing though. I was missing the opportunity to let what I already know to be true about myself shine though. I am creative enough to make this website work. I am special enough to reach out and offer my message to the world. I am absolutely worthy of the life I’m creating for myself. No one, including myself, gets to tell me otherwise.

The Cards

from the Everyday Tarort by Bridgit Esselmont

Knight of Cups: you are romantic, charming and in love with love itself. You have a knack for wearing your heart on your sleeve and are inspired by the many creative outlets that are available to you.

Queen of Pentacles: you are the ultimate working person; you have responsibilities to care for in your home and with your family, but you also are making a living for yourself and creating your financial abundance. Here you have the ability to maintain a healthy balance between your home and work lives.

5 of cups: a situation hasn’t turned out the way you anticipated and you’re feeling low about it. Before you get completely mired in your emotions, look around again. While you have lost some, you haven’t lost everything. There will be new opportunities awaiting you when you’re ready for them.

So this read is about tapping into my power and using it to see where I can create the dream lifestyle for myself. In spite of the anxiety and imposter syndrome, I am able to see inspiration and gain emotional connection from the many creative outlets around me. This is definitely true of me because I get bored of doing one thing over and over again. There’s a reason my biography mentions that I am a writer and artist on top of being a tarot reader. I have many outlets that I’ve mastered and I am pleased to share them all with everyone. Another ability this reading is showing me is the fact that I can see what can be used again from when I’ve fallen down. I am not a unique person in that I’ve been in disappointing situations before. We all have. The 5 of Cups is a good reminder to feel the feels around your situation, then look around and see where you can rebuild from the ashes. The message of the card is while you have lost some things, you haven’t lost everything. You have a second chance to create your dream anew. Another thing that seems to be coming up for me is the idea of my work and home life. I’ve had to learn how to balance the two so I’m not favoring one thing over another. My work life is important and that takes priority for a while. But so is dealing with things at home. The nice thing about myself right now is that I seem to have found the sweet spot in balancing things between work and home lives and I’m really happy with where things are in both.