The Cause of Inaction

Deck used is the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham, Paul Kepple and Ralph Geroni

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Sometimes, we just can’t get started. Whether it’s because we’ve had a bad night’s sleep, or we have a big project coming that we’re afraid of fudging, sometimes getting that thing done feels insurmountable. So what do we do about it? How do we help ourselves past the inaction so we can make our goals come to pass? I think the cards have something to say so let’s see what happens shall we?

from the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham

The Cards

2 of cups: Harmony, Balance, Compromise

Temperance: Balance, Alchemy, Cooperation

10 of swords: Disaster, rot and ruin, destruction

King of Hazards: Distant, hard work, businessman

In the grand scope of things, I am pursuing a path where I can achieve harmony and balance in life. In this regard, the relationship I have with myself is one of importance because it’s been a hard road to learn where I need to compromise and cooperate with what is is expected of me andwhere I can step away from those expectations and make a little (how about alot of…) my own alchemy and magic. I’ve been in situations where my mental health has been in disastrous states and this has caused me to lean well into ruinous and destructive states of being. I don’t ever want to go to those places again and I’ve been working hard to achieve this balance. However, being distant from those situations and not acknowledging them hasn’t been good for me either because I haven’t truly worked on what caused me to get so bad in the first place.

To give a little perspective, I was working at a bookstore up until late last year and decided that due to bureaucracy and other issues, I needed to stop working there. I felt ruined and disgraceful because I lost yet another job, and especially one that really mattered to me. It took having a conversation with a dear friend of mine after the fact that got the idea in my head to start Lune Rouge but it took me a lot of time to really get going because I had to heal my mental health. I had to really work on it because my depression was so very bad during this time. I barely felt present during my family’s holiday celebrations (which I forced myself to be at even though I felt like crying most of the time.) Luckily, giving myself time and rest was the ticket I needed to start researching what I need to know to make Lune Rouge a viable business. The journey to Lune Rouge has been the culmination of working on myself to the point where my Devil isn’t resting so heavy on my shoulders and I can be happy that I took action in creating the space I want to thrive in. Believe me guys, I’ve never been happier to share this with all of you.