The Fool’s Journey

Deck used is the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham, Paul Kepple and Ralph Geroni. Disclaimer for mild gore and graphic images. Please read these posts at your discretion if you are sensitive.

As I’ve talked about in past posts, The Fool is the absolute start of a traditional set of tarot cards. They represent the beginning of a journey, enthusiasm and the unknown. I’ve gotten this card in readings past, especially when I’ve asked myself how to handle what comes next. In that case, I’ve always suggested to myself to remember where I’ve come from, but it may mean something other than that. With this idea in mind, I want to turn to my cards to see what The Fool is trying to say to me now.

from the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham

The Cards

The Empress: fertility, maternal, success

8 of swords: lack of action, victimization, no-win situations

Bonus: 10 of Cups: peace, contentment, family

With this reading, I’m seeing my current situation being one of success, creation and nurturing. I think this is true because I’ve been spending a lot of time writing and creating things for Lune Rouge to work. I have never felt happier to share my work and more settled in myself. I know what I’ve been able to do with my creative work and am so proud of myself for it. But this happiness hasn’t come without challenges. I’ve alluded to this in the past but there seems to always be a small intrusive voice in the back of my head, telling me I can’t do this. It would be faster to just give up and get a desk job somewhere. I should go back to working retail or food service because it’s a paycheck and not something that’s going to make me happy. Hell, people close to me have even told me they don’t think I can make freelancing work. The aftermath of all of these things together is that I feel trapped, unable to act and in a no-win situation. The thing is, I’m wrong about myself and so are these people. Honestly. The 8 of swords is a deceptive card to me because it shows how one MIGHT be entrapped. What it doesn’t show is the fact that there are ways out if we look around, use our resources and keep trying. If I can keep going with the day to day business of Lune Rouge, if I can keep pushing my negative self talk and proving the haters wrong, I’ll be at peace knowing I did the best work I could do at the time it was done and with the resources I had.