The Old Stories I Keep Telling Myself

Decks used are the Cosmic Tarot- Norbert Loesche and the Energy Oracle- Sandra Anne Taylor. The music that inspired this post can be found here: Mindgarden- Leavv

Once again, I find myself turning to nature for this reading, this time the image comes from one of my favorite places on earth to be, and that’s at the beach. I’ve likely said this in past posts, but I have many a fond memory of being at the beach because being by the water is healing and peaceful for me. I wanted to tap into this energy (as I have with the other posts) and use this as motivation for the story I want to tell. What do I need to see in order to openly and safely do this?

cards pulled from various decks

I am standing on the beach at my favorite spot and watching the waves roll in and out. What lesson can I learn from the changing tides and the crashing waves?

• 8 of cups: time to turn your back on disappointments and find new pastures to water

• All tied Up: lack of motivation or sense of personal freedom

Nothing remains static, and the world is ever-changing. What can I do to make the most of the time I have in the here and now?

• 8 of wands: stay on your toes and pay attention, information is coming in fast, swift movement

• Rest and Rejuvenation: relaxation and meditation

the boardwalk is busy and exciting, but I need some time away to reflect. Is there anything I’m missing that I may have lost in the busyness and stress of the day?

• 10 of wands: burden, weight, carrying a heavy load

• Happy family: closeness, fun, caring

This needs a chance to grow and be reflected upon so it can be safely integrated into my space

• 3 of swords: hurt, pain, heartache from all around

• Anxiety: worry and distress

this needs to be released so I can make space for the new energy gained from reflecting on the energy from [insert card]

• Queen of pentacles: generous, nurturing of one’s growth in terms of finances and material abundances

• Woman holding a coin: female connection in money, health or value, generous

The thing I’m seeing right off the bat with this reading is that it’s time to let go of the disappointments and heartaches. Things have been so stressful and uncomfortable lately and this is because I keep holding on to old hurts. These are old stories I need to stop telling myself and it’s especially important that I let this go right now because there is new information coming in quickly that I need to stay aware of. It’s coming in fast and in order to make the best of this time, I need to give myself a break so I can truly and deeply internalize what is happening around me. I also need to give myself a break because there has been a heavy burden on my shoulders lately that has caused me pain and anxiety. Now what’s the trigger point you ask? The likely answer is the old stories I’ve been telling but also that I’ve been stuck feeling low and hurt. The thing I can do for myself, aside from rest and take some time to rejuvenate my heart is to make sure that I am being generous with myself during this time.