The Reason for The Dream

Deck used is the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

Have you ever had a dream so profound you couldn’t quite forget it after you woke up? Have you ever felt the need to pursue something off center from your norm that you don’t know how to say no to it? This reading was done for myself to help me understand some of the energies I’ve been feeling lately. There’s fear, anxiety and a bit of pain still lingering around experiences, though I am very happy with where things are right now. So let’s get into some cards and see how they can help.

The Cards

From the Urban Tarot by Robin Scott

10 of swords: This card represents the times where we have been completely ruined by the hurt and cruelty of those we thought we could trust. We look at what we might have done to deserve this heartache; perhaps we are the cause of this pain to others. Whatever the cause, we have become responsible for managing the destruction we see around us and it is far too late to change. The damage is now done.

Queen of cups: The character of this card is someone who is kind, affectionate and caring. They are accepting without being judgmental and they represent someone who can be reflective and introspective as well. They are the mirror of the person they are helping and therefore may be difficult to understand the true nature of.

8 of cups: If this card appears in a spread, it’s time to reassess where you are in your current situation and take stock of what has happened to you up until this moment. It might be time to walk away from things you thought were going to work out better than they did. The longer we stay in the pit of despair and pain, the harder it will be to get ourselves out of it. It takes emotional courage to get up and walk out of a situation that isn’t serving us anymore, but sometimes, this is the only and best option we have if we what things to change.

Art: In this deck, this is a stand in for Temperance, however the meanings are the same. This card represents the need to find the middle ground, the need to eschew extremism and the need to mix anger and passion with calm rationality and moderation.

The Devil: this card represents the things we are enslaved by and addicted to. This character is part of our shadow selves and the parts of us that we’d rather not look at too deeply. The trick here is that once we recognize the Devil in all of us, we can work to make sure we acknowledge and work with this energy. It will do no good to heap shame upon ourselves for having this side of our personas. All of us do and all of us are capable of working with the energies.

I need to be honest here, I don’t remember details of the dream that prompted this reading, but I do remember feeling very anxious and nervous about things after I woke up. I felt betrayed by my own brain because I kept feeling like it had to do with the events of last year. To be fair, I know I did some of this to myself, but I thought I had moved on from it. How I wish it were that easy (it’s not…) I suppose that, in order to deal with the pain, the darkness and the hurt I’m feeling around these events, I need to treat myself with kind acceptance and to know that walking away from the things I thought were good for me was the best things I could have done for myself. If I hadn’t made the mistakes I made, if I hadn’t been the person I was last year, I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to grow and become the person I am now. I still have a bit of The Devil in me, but that isn’t out of the norm for anyone and I am not unique in this regard. What I can do is work to make sure the energies around me are stable and moderated so I can be the best version of myself, shadow and all.