Through The Eyes of Love

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Sometimes, we get the opportunity to do something we’ve always wanted to do, but if you’re anything like me, you end up having a little nibble of anxiety creep into your brain at the thought of doing it. If you’re anything like me, sometimes that little nibble becomes a hungry beast that causes you to ruminate and try to hide away from it until it goes away. The thing is, it never really does, does it? So how can we help ourselves through this? Let’s find out, shall we?

The Cards

cards pulled from various sources

“I witness the darkness and call on the light with my prayer: Thankyou universe for guiding me to perceive this fear through the eyes of the teacher of love.” Gabrielle Berenstein

ROW 1

1. 5 of hearts: moving forward, learning from mistakes.

2. 7 of swords: deception, looking over your shoulder, check your motivation for doing certain things, your actions have consequences

3. Page of pentacles: application, study, news, messages, rule, and management

4. Knight of Arrows (hawk): supporter through the layers of doubt and uncertainty, a champion for the belief of themselves or others, friend, vigilance through turns of events

5. 8 of coins: dedication, skills, beginner, new craft, passion, willingness to learn

6. 10 of swords: something is far from done but you don’t need to live in pain and struggle, cycles end and new ones begin, leave your problems and obstacles at the door

ROW 2

1. Wheel of Fortune: cycles and moving through them, what is up will be down and vice versa

2. 4 of swords (reverse): stop resting on your laurels. Things need doing and you’re procrastinating so don’t be afraid to come out of hiding

3. Justice: truth, clarity, answering for your past behaviors, and moving forward

4. The wanderer: you’re loved unconditionally even if you’re only conditionally obeyed.

5. 6 of wands: victory, recognition of hard work, success

6. 4 of wands (completion): the celebration of what you have built, foundation, growth, changes for the better.

ROW 3

1. The High Priestess: intuition, serenity, divine Goddess

2. Knave of Wands: birth, creativity, new enterprise, first fruits leading to news, messages courage, loyalty, trustworthiness, skills, and intelligence

3. New Moon in Scorpio: work through your fears

4. Lapis Lazuli: ascend your rightful throne

5. Valencia (she who stands): resolute, implacable, determined

6. Hummingbird: be here now

ROW 4

1. Judgment: balancing head and heart, answering for past actions, where do you stand in your life path

2. Page of pentacles: student, young, recognition of hard work so far.

3. Picture of Jasper (artistry): creative pursuits, creating your future, dreams, visions

4. Herfest: fruition, completion, harvest, rewards, recognition, success, bounty

5. The Lovers: Soul connection, decisions that make the heart glad

6. 9 of pentacles: hard work, good results

With this reading, I am seeing that many things are holding you back from really doing what you want to be doing. You are battling through layers of self-doubt and fear and this is preventing you from completing things you’ve started for yourself and this might be keeping you in a perpetually vicious cycle. Actions have consequences and you know this quite well because you have been looking over your shoulder for too long now. The worst feeling of all of this is that you are hiding away and procrastinating on doing the kind of job you know you can do. Here’s the thing. You have support through all of this; you’re not alone like your anxiety is telling you you are. Once you set aside all the fear and self-doubt, you will gain so much clarity and you will come to understand that you’re in a place of authority to do the work you need to do. There will be many opportunities along the to celebrate your hard work and success and you will reap the rewards of a good harvest if you never stop learning and work hard.