Through the Veil

Deck used is the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham, Paul Kepple and Ralph Geroni. Disclaimer for mild gore and graphic images. Please read these posts at your discretion if you are sensitive.

As some of you may well know, I lost my mother to cancer when I was 15. It was one of the most difficult and traumatic things I have ever experienced and though there has been so many years between then and now, I can’t lie and say I don’t miss her to this day. There are things I genuinely wish I could say to her, things I wish I could do with her, but she’s one of my angels… she has been for a long time now. I’m grateful she isn’t hurting anymore and that she’s with me to this day. You know what? That’s how I want this message to be… a talk with my mom. So what do I need to know Mom? I’m listening.

The Cards

from the Zombie Tarot by Sarah Graham et al.

Knight of cups: romantic, adventure, moody

10 of wands: burdens, responsibility, struggle

8 of cups: moving on, troubled relationships, change

3 of swords: heartache, jealousy, loss

Ace of wands: new tasks, motivation, energy

Seven of swords: theft, sabotage, deception

2 of hazards: balance, harmony, juggling responsibilities

King of cups: empathy, diplomat, generous

As far as what my mother went through before she died, it was definitely an adventure. My mother had stage 4 metastatic breast cancer that eventually spread to her lungs and that was what took her. It was awful to experience for me being on the outside and I can only imagine what horrifying things my mother experienced going through chemo. Losing her was definitely a burden and a huge change that neither my brother, father or I were ready for. We went through the absolute most hell as each of us struggled with the loss we faced. GUYS IT FUCKING HURT TO LOSE MY MOTHER… I would never wish that kind of heartache on anyone because the depth of pain is profoundly indescribable. But the message I didn’t quite internalize until now was that there was going to be new tasks, motivation and energies coming and that even though people (including me) would be deceptive and sabotaging to the energies around me, there will be new ways of balancing, harmonizing and juggling the responsibilities around me. There will always be someone who is empathetic and generous to me when I’m experiencing pain, even if I have to dig deep and let that person be me.

Mom: I love you and miss you. I hope you’re doing okay. Thank you for passing this message along.

Blessed be.